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ZUOHAN, 06121988rickdecgozz@hotmail.com 23yrold boy with a 40yrold intellect NTU Communication Studies jog.gym.eat.laugh.sleep.sing.travel
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
What am i supposed to Do? I'm really stressed up now. I have never experience this immense pressure since my birthday last year. While I was resting today, a message came. " Today busy again.. When you never come. I cannot side ya. Sore throat is not a valid reason not to come to work. You better find a reason to explain to Yanzhen tomorrow as she is doing opening shift. If you came today, I'm sure every partner at work will appreciate your presence. " That statement was as though a knife just pierced through my heart. I was dumbfounded, totally confused. The next message came. " From next week onwards, I will only give you 4 days at work. This will give you no excuse of not coming to work next time and prevent from being sick again.@ -Sister (Manager) I am practically speechless and shocked now. I woke up this morning at 10, and felt my throat throbbing weirdly, and I was feeling quite uncomfortable. I decided not to go to work, with the condition that if someone was able to replace me fro my shift from 12 to 5 later. I called, and sister picked up. I explain my situation, and she coldly replied (not deliberate I guess, because it was busy then) after around 15 secs later, " Today you need not come already." I was quite uneasy that she spoke so crudely, but I dismiss that thought. Meanwhile, I heaved a huge sigh of relief and was thankful that I could take a rest today. Its 6.30pm now, and the two messages came. I am really confused. Didn't she said I need not come to work? I really misunderstood that she found someone to replace me already. The next message came after I replied, " Argh, I wanted to come, but I thought you found someone to replace me already. So I didn't go finally. " " U kid who.. tell me who can work in e mornin? dun need to think its also understandable that only u, aminah, ila and alvin. right.. its not that we really short handed but u should know tat your name on shift.. so how will e partners feel? and because i your sis i let ya off.. sali na ask me today we short handed huh? wat can I say? alvin have to extent because of that. i call you later." My heart is pounding with fear furiously. And my eyes are at the brink of transforming into red teary ones. I definitely do not want others to misunderstand her, to think that she is my sister and she will cover for me. At the same time, I want to be trusted by others as well. But how am I supposed to explain to Yan Zhen tomorrow? I will be honest and say that I had a sore throat, but what if she questioned this next? " Its just a sore throat huh? Then never come to work " Am I supposed to reply, " Because my sister said don't need to come already. " Won't this cause MORE misunderstanding? _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Just now she called. I do feel less traumatic, but I'm still uneasy. She explain that she let me off because she don't want me to fall sick today and have a bad day at work, and take a mc tomorrow. Instead, she will prefer to have someone taking a rest today, and working afresh and comfortably tomorrow. She makes lots of sense in her elaboration. I feel that I didn't prove myself enough, but I do not mind about that. Time will heal all wounds, but I just feel really uneasy thinking about the confrontation tomorrow. A misunderstand that stirs up, and recurring as a shocking dilemma to me. Damn, I hope everything will turn out fine.. New Year Clothes Opps, I'm back, as I forgotton to blog about this. My sister and I went to Bugis today, and while her purpose was to get a new set of clothing for herself (which she had aimed for quite some time), I decided to take (erm, kinda persuaded?) a look around the shop for new year's clothing. Initially, I just scanned over the clothes, though it was more like checking out the price tags. Haha My sister, whose bank account left around $250 before, used 3/4 of it to purchase her necessities. Fortunately for her (and me), pay is going to be released on the 28th! She practically dragged me towards the guys section, and after eyeing at several clothings, she saw one white polo tee which was perfectly suitable for me. It's kinda translucent, and this will enhance the effect of wearing a shirt underneath. I fell in love with that immediately, but well, it costed $45. We were strolling towards the exit, when she picked up another clothing. The front of this shirt is quite cool but ordinary. However, when she turned that shirt around, it was coloured with a darker green to contrast against the lighter one. I was surprised, and undoubtedly, I fell in love with that as well. Without taking a look at the price, I unwillingly place that down, knowing it costed around 45 to 50 dollars. I'm finally getting my pay on the 28th. But to spent a whopping $100 on clothes alone is ridiculous. Yet I'm so mesmerised and enticed by that two. Should I buy them? Guess I will first update my bank booklet on the 28th and decide then. :) |
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ZUOHAN, OUT!
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