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ZUOHAN, 06121988rickdecgozz@hotmail.com 23yrold boy with a 40yrold intellect NTU Communication Studies jog.gym.eat.laugh.sleep.sing.travel
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
To Van I finally understood. Is this what you think of the gang- superficial and abnoxious pigs who possess mentalities of kids and have difficulties differentiating right or wrong? VAN, I am disappointed in you. REALLY DAMN FUCKING DISAPPOINTED. Do you know you are one who has transformed? From secondary 1 all the way until secondary 3, you were always demanding and very temperamental. I treated you as a good friend, but heated arguments were common those days due to both of our inmaturities. Secondary 4 was the turning point of all those unnecessary quarrels, as you seemed to change your attitude, to a more caring and lovable person. I could see that you tried to avoid arguments with anyone, unless you are provoked innocently. And do you realise this carried on after everyone graduated from Damai and started work? This was when I thought everyone finally matured and became more tolerable. Ray came into your life, and left you shattered into pieces. At that time, I'm sure you realised that everyone's immediate reactions were to protect you from more harm? Why did we do that? Can you explain that that was just a facade? Even if you can claim that Eileen or Tuty or even ME was acting hypocritically then, I am sure you are smart enough to comprehend that the rest of the gang aren't there to encourage you just for the sake of doing it. Yet, have you realise that after the FUCKING ASSHOLE BASTARD Ray left your life, you transformed back to the original Van, the one whom everyone had to tolerate if any abuses were to be hurled towards us? Van, do you know why I am so furious now? That's because you make me feel that you have treated all of the friendships like a dime. When you were in need of us, we were there (and I'll repeat this again, none of us were being hypocritical so that we can be praised by you at the end of the day) for you, but now, you portrayed our relationships to seem like they were just fucking relationships that you are able to get away from, anytime anyday. The purpose that everyone (included you and me) avoided arguments was because we did not want to spark childish quarrels. We love each other, enjoys each other's company. Yes, we do meet make new friends in a new environment. Therefore, none of us is to be blamed for seemingly drifting apart from each other. Fortunately, we congregated, and I'm sure you understand why we do so. To have a joyful day together, and just to forget all our troubles is one of the greatest wish I have. But that day, you were being different. Like I've mentioned, I did not complain about going to Pasir Ris Park even though East Coast seemed to be a more ideal location. Perhaps you can say that I'm a coward, but I am sure that I didn't elaborate furthur with you as I did not want to cause any unhappiness within the group due to this minor issue, especially since you will be angry for being accused for no apparent reason. You were unhappy when we persuaded you to go along for bowling. I do not care about what the others were thinking, but I really hoped you come along because I want to treasure more time with you guys. You carried on giving an irreasonable attitude, but I just tolerated. In my mind, I persuaded myself that you had such a drastic mood that day as you were not able to buy your handphone, instead of giving myself a reason to believe that you have transformed. I am really hurt by your post. Even if it was directed to the entire gang, I am sure you know how this FUCKER zuohan will feel. A friend of five years, only to branded as a insensible idiot who does not have his own stand. If you want to know, I am angry because you broke your friendship with Eileen, not because I think that Eileen possess a much more mature attitude than the current you, She was showing concern when she smsed you. She was once immature as well, but this time round she was different. She took the courage to sms you. Instead, you step over the boundary and broke the friendship without elaborating yourself. If you did not care about how Eileen feel, then did you consider how the rest will feel? How do you think it will ever be possible if I call you out and not Eileen and vice versa? Its impossible. In conclusion, if you want to break this friendship, so be it. I'm really confused and disappointed, but since you state that this is what you demand, I will grant this wish of yours. Goodbye. If you were to look back one day and finally realise that you committed a grave mistake, don't regret it. Because you chose it yourself. |
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ZUOHAN, OUT!
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