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ZUOHAN, 06121988rickdecgozz@hotmail.com 23yrold boy with a 40yrold intellect NTU Communication Studies jog.gym.eat.laugh.sleep.sing.travel
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
What am i supposed to Do? I'm really stressed up now. I have never experience this immense pressure since my birthday last year. While I was resting today, a message came. " Today busy again.. When you never come. I cannot side ya. Sore throat is not a valid reason not to come to work. You better find a reason to explain to Yanzhen tomorrow as she is doing opening shift. If you came today, I'm sure every partner at work will appreciate your presence. " That statement was as though a knife just pierced through my heart. I was dumbfounded, totally confused. The next message came. " From next week onwards, I will only give you 4 days at work. This will give you no excuse of not coming to work next time and prevent from being sick again.@ -Sister (Manager) I am practically speechless and shocked now. I woke up this morning at 10, and felt my throat throbbing weirdly, and I was feeling quite uncomfortable. I decided not to go to work, with the condition that if someone was able to replace me fro my shift from 12 to 5 later. I called, and sister picked up. I explain my situation, and she coldly replied (not deliberate I guess, because it was busy then) after around 15 secs later, " Today you need not come already." I was quite uneasy that she spoke so crudely, but I dismiss that thought. Meanwhile, I heaved a huge sigh of relief and was thankful that I could take a rest today. Its 6.30pm now, and the two messages came. I am really confused. Didn't she said I need not come to work? I really misunderstood that she found someone to replace me already. The next message came after I replied, " Argh, I wanted to come, but I thought you found someone to replace me already. So I didn't go finally. " " U kid who.. tell me who can work in e mornin? dun need to think its also understandable that only u, aminah, ila and alvin. right.. its not that we really short handed but u should know tat your name on shift.. so how will e partners feel? and because i your sis i let ya off.. sali na ask me today we short handed huh? wat can I say? alvin have to extent because of that. i call you later." My heart is pounding with fear furiously. And my eyes are at the brink of transforming into red teary ones. I definitely do not want others to misunderstand her, to think that she is my sister and she will cover for me. At the same time, I want to be trusted by others as well. But how am I supposed to explain to Yan Zhen tomorrow? I will be honest and say that I had a sore throat, but what if she questioned this next? " Its just a sore throat huh? Then never come to work " Am I supposed to reply, " Because my sister said don't need to come already. " Won't this cause MORE misunderstanding? _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Just now she called. I do feel less traumatic, but I'm still uneasy. She explain that she let me off because she don't want me to fall sick today and have a bad day at work, and take a mc tomorrow. Instead, she will prefer to have someone taking a rest today, and working afresh and comfortably tomorrow. She makes lots of sense in her elaboration. I feel that I didn't prove myself enough, but I do not mind about that. Time will heal all wounds, but I just feel really uneasy thinking about the confrontation tomorrow. A misunderstand that stirs up, and recurring as a shocking dilemma to me. Damn, I hope everything will turn out fine.. |
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ZUOHAN, OUT!
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