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Wednesday, September 15, 2004
The nosy side of mine. It will sometime later after I blog, as I'm really going to concentrate on my exams. I will dedicate this post to some of my friends, currently overwhelm by problems and trying to breakaway from them. Perhaps it is my principle, but I do not like to see others unhappy. Extremely sensitive to others feelings, sometimes overdoing it to results a peril to worsen. I tried to change this nature of mine, but its damn tough. At times, I ponder over this issue, and I lose myself in a train of thoughts. Furthurmore, this self conscious part of me will question myself, " Zuohan, are you being nosy? Will others think that you are too nosy? Have you say something will complicated matters? " Ultimately, I know that I mean well, so I hope others understand my personality too. Do not be furious with me, ok? =) 1. K is happily attached with A. Been together for quite some time, and it gave me an impression that they will be a couple for a really long time. However, just four days ago, night time, when K disclose that he was single. He lost his calm and became really unstable, and devoured his own emotions by drinking. I was really worried then, but I could not do much. He was more knowlegable, one with much more experience with public relations, and he even taught me a few tips. So all I could do was to send smilies, and pray that he will be fine. Today, I guess he is doing alright, so I'm going to heave a sigh of relief, at least for now. 2. R and I is an item. Well, literally, because they were not doing fine. People with different personalities and stubborn to accept their partners characters. Yet they love each other. Perhaps R more than I, because of the way R has been so depaired about their relationship. And Mr Zuo Han interrupted the scene, gave advices to both side. However, the stubborn side of theirs will not allow my words to penetrate throught their mind. R got really parochial, and quarrel frequently with I. I, on the otherhand, misunderstand R, thinking that R was being too protective and pessimistic. Two days ago, R announced the broke up. R's heart was shattered. I was disappointed and sad, and I accompanied I through chats and games. However, I do feel guilty too, if I have no come into that scene, R might not misunderstand and complicate matters. What I really hope now is to see both R and I are happy. You are my friends, and I will try my best to make both cheerful. 3. This concerns my classmates. E and P were good friends. Almost like intimate buddies, they shared secrets with each other, talk about girl's stuff. However, C went into the picture, and became good friends with the both of them. A problem arised- P is a sensitive, down to earth girl who never fail to be parochial. Initially she deny that their friendship was cracking, but it became obvious. She was really jealous, perhaps too overwhelmed with sadness that her friendship is not working out, and instead, E and C are happy buddies. Little did she know that E was concerned. P's suddenly disappearance, P's decision to join the guys for a chat instead of committing herself into E's girls group, and whether P was complicating what others think of her now. Yet E became stubborn, she refused to give in. (Don't misunderstand me, she has the right to do so.) Neither did my advice for P got into her head permenantly. Currently, E and P are so called 'no longer' friends, just because a simple matter which was undeniably complicated with the interception of C. I'm frustrated and irritated at both of their stubborness, and there was once my temper really went out of control as I harshly scolded both. I regretted that, because being an audience to this problem, I choose to commit myself too much. Now, I realise that the decision of recovering the friendship ultimately depends on them. I will continue to hope for the best, but if E, P and C are reading this (I'm sure they know who they are. o.Ov ), you girls will always be my good friends. I'm not influenced by what I hear, instead I judged with what I witnessed. All three, or at least, E and P were partially at fault, with the emotions to be crucified as the main source of trouble. =( 4. D and O are really close, and D doted on O. He ever told me once, " O is one the most important in my life. " Yet when I know O, he revealed that they are not doing fine. And when I think back, D seems to be weird (in a form of sadness) these days. I thought I was too paranoid, by I'm right I guess. However, I did not want to interrupt into this issue, as firstly, I only know O for a short time, secondly, I totally have no idea what resulted to this coldness and harshness, and finally, I did not want to worsen the matter with my words. All I could do is to persuade D to do something about it, though I guess he was adamant about it. I don't fully comprehend how he feels about this cracking brotherhood, but I will continue to send my smilies to both of them, and hope that one day, everything will be resolved. A quote to summarise my post, "Treasure what you currently possess, do not take everything for granted. Leave joyful memories inside you, and try to be happy." |
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ZUOHAN, OUT!
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